30 December, 2009

#23- D.E.B.S.


D.E.B.S. is one of those movies that despite the poor acting, somewhat unrealistic plot, and low production costs can still be called a wonderful, campy, feel good movie - with gorgeous main characters, dressed in all girls uniforms.

I wish I could do this movie justice, but somehow I feel the summary from the DEBS website would do a better job:

"Recruited by the U.S. government for their unique ability to lie, cheat and fight, Amy, Max, Janet and Dominique join an underground academy of secret agents known only as D.E.B.S. These crime fighting hotties set out to save the world and keep their lipstick perfectly applied while doing so. Now the girls must combine their skills for their most important mission- to capture vexing vixen Lucy Diamond, the deadliest criminal the world has ever known. When D.E.B.S. star player, Amy, falls for Lucy, chaos erupts and the D.E.B.S. loyalty is put to the test."

Awesome, yes? If that's not enough to reason to watch the movie. Perhaps I should go into further detail on how adorable the relationship between Lucy Diamond and Amy is. The chemistry is incredible, and the whole strong, hot lesbian villain seducing the confused school girl is pretty hot.

As for the rest of the characters, they really add to the rest of the movie. All of the colorful characters are amusing and just a smidge unrealistic, which makes their actions even funnier. From the "snap snap" black girl to the cool and a times haughty french girl, the movie is chock full of harmless stereotypes that will have you laughing.

While it is a bit unrealistic at times, its heartwarming and leaves you feeling good. But, its not all romance - the action side also leads to some blood pumping good times. There are some decent fighting scenes, and the low budget action only makes the movie even better.

Without fail, you'll have a good time watching this movie. Its a pleasant movie experience and really, how wrong can you go with Jordana Brewster?

28 December, 2009

#45 - Imagine Me and You

Ohh, Imagine Me and You. What to say about this movie? Well, I should start off by saying that this is neither the first time that I've seen this movie, nor would I think that this is it the first time that you readers have heard of this movie. It's on those movies that is usually mentioned as one of the better known, queer films,. Then again, it has Piper Perabo (Lost and Delirious) in it, so how could it not be mentioned?!

I'll start off by saying, that it's not one of my favorite movies. Time and time again, I fail to see why lesbians love this movie to pieces. I won't lie - it is a good movie, and it is heartwarming, but it's not memorable. You don't fall in love with any of the characters, you may feel for them, but honestly, this movie just feels like it tries too hard to be a good romantic comedy.

Summary:

Rachel is getting married to Heck. On the day of her wedding, she feels an unexplicable attraction to Luce, the female gay florist. After the wedding, she befriends Luce (invites her to dinner, etc) in the hopes of setting her up with Cooper, Heck's friend. However, sparks fly between the two ladies, and although neither of them do anything about it, you can tell that there is an attraction. The next day, she learns that Luce is gay, and is now even more interested in learning about Luce, and begins to do some "research" on lesbians on her own (cue in the hilarious scene at the movie rental place). From here, there is a lot of events that lead up to the romance between the two ladies. I won't give too much away after this, but it's definitely a journey that quite nice to watch. Although there isn't much of a sexual, physical intimacy between the two characters, you definitely get enough emotional intimacy to make up for the loss.

Relationships:

The relationship between Rachel and Luce is one of the sweeter ones that I've seen. They are adorable from the start, and the two actresses definitely had a lot of chemistry. You see why they fall in love, and every time I watch this movie, I always catch something between them that I missed the last time I saw them.

As for all of the relationships in the movie, they all are pretty realistic - as far as romantic comedies go. There are plenty of one liners between all the characters that are just friggen adorable. You are left touched, and at times also pensive.

Characters that were just too unrealistic:
The characters are charming, and completely fleshed out. You definitely understand their motivations and do feel empathy for their situations. While I don't completely agree with all of their actions, I can see why they are made - and I appreciate them for it. I'm also sure many people find the little girl adorable, I however cannot stand her. But, that's a rant for another day.

I think one of the problems with the movie is that everyone is just too friggen nice. Yes, they may be angry every now and then, but they are all together too forgiving. Heck. Really? Come on, you've just found out that your wife has fallen in love with a women, and thats all the emotion that you show? Come on. To quote Paulie "rage more." Then, let's look at Rachel's mom. You have a problem with your daughter's new attraction, but you seem to get over it within a few hours. That's pretty unrealistic, and just downright stupid on behalf of the writer.

I understand the need for a happy ending, but how about some realism, yea?


If you are in love and are watching this movie - you would definitely enjoy the affection between the characters, and the plot in general. I wouldn't recommend this as one of those movies that are going to be a fan favorite, but for a rainy saturday afternoon, this movie hits the spot. For those of you going through a break up, there is some peace to be reached after watching the movie. It's cleansing in a way.

#68 - Producing Adults

So what better way to break this blogger's rut than by reviewing a Finish queer movie from 2004. There's a better way you say? Lies!

So, what to say about this film? Well, Variety does get it right - it was entertaining, and it was also charming, but it also was dark. It is by no means a happy go lucky movie. The themes are indeed for mature audiences. The viewer grows like the characters, even if you are left pretty much frustrated by all of them.

I guess the best way to describe the film is by saying that it was like it captured a group of people in a particular moment in time. There is not a lot of exposition, but that doesn't mean that it's not hard to figure out what is going on in the film. Near the end, there isn't a lot of wrap up, just a lot of things left unsaid, and not entirely resolved for the future. However, this does not detract from the actual film itself. This in itself does make the movie charming and since there is this humane quality to the film, it also makes it easier to forgive that characters for their transgressions, which believe me - there are plenty.

Summary

The film starts off focusing on the long term relationship between Venla and Antero. She finds out that she is pregnant, but soon after miscarries, which wasn't so accidental. This however, has left Venla wanting a child. Meanwhile, that would be the last thing in Antero's mind, especially since he is focusing on his Olympic dreams. A good portion of the movie is spent with both willing to do whatever it takes to make sure that their desires are achieved. The extremes that both characters are willing to go are pretty comical, but on the hand, when one begins to think of the desperation in both of the, one is left feeling sorry for them.

One such extreme lands Venla receiving help from her co-worker, Satu. Here is where the real romance begins. The two women fall in love with each other and try to prevail despite the baggage that both of them carry.

Like I previously mentioned, the ending of the movie does a provide some kind of resolution, but nothing is completely left closed. The audience is left to assume the fate of the characters, albiet it - it is a happy fate.

Criticism

This was a good movie and I don't really have many negative things to say about it. The acting and cinematography were both really great. A small problem I had with the film was the way that men were treated by the film. For most of the movie, they were portrayed as jackasses or idiots. At the end, most do receive a reprieve, and they are shown as multi-dimensional people, but I feel like the damage had already been done.


All in all however, it was a decent movie and I would look into into it and see what you think of it.

Back!

Okay so after a long hiatus, Damaged Room is back! Classes took their toll this semester, and I barely had time to juggle all the things in my life. But, fortunately, winter break is upon us - and with it... more movies!

So come back! Visit! Thanks to my broken external hard drive, I have been forced to go find movies to watch again, rather than plugging in the familiar ones. So expect to see periodic movie reviews of the lesbian persuasion!

- Arco Iris

02 October, 2009

#93 - The Secrets (Ha-Sodot)

Oh yes, I have mentioned The Secrets for so long and I have finally gotten to actually writing about it! Excited? I am. Why? Because I effing love this movie. It's so good... in every possible way. But, before I go and gush about this Israeli 2008 gem, I'll give you a bit of background.

The movie centers around Naomi and Michel and their time in a women's Jewish seminary. In the first part of the film there is a lot of tension and disagrements between these two characters, but of course as all movies go - they eventually become friends and lovers. Their story however, is not the central one. Actually, you don't get to any lesbian loving until maybe 2/3rds of the film has passed, and until then, there really isn't any indication that that's where the movie is headed. Most of the movie centers around the two women helping out Anouk, a French woman searching redemption for her sins.

Part of the reason I love this movie is because it goes into so many different aspects. It's neither a movie about two girls who fall in love, nor is it a movie about redemption. It's a movie that incorporates so many different aspects and you're just left completely awestruck by the quality.

The acting was fantastic, as was the script. The movie may have run for 20 minutes too long, but you know what.... that was 20 extra minutes where I got to see Noemi and Michel. Have I mentioned how incredibly beautiful both leading women are? And their interaction with each other? Wow. They were so friggen adorable that I didn't know if I should go "aww" when thinking about their cuteness, or be jealous that I will never be able to reach that level of aww factor with anyone.

Now, don't get me wrong. This is not a happy film. In fact, the ending will have you confused and wanting to go to Avi Nesher herself and demand a better ending. But, that's part of the movie itself. I won't spoil it, but I will say that it's not your traditional lesbian movie. Neither Michel no Noemi die, but that doesn't mean that either of them, as well as the audience, isn't left heartbroken.

Don't watch this movie after a break-up, or if you're feeling vulnerable, but definitely watch this movie. It's so good, and it will leave you haunted for a while.

National Coming Out Day

Well, seeing Telemachus actually post fueled a fire in me to end my blogging drought- and what better way of doing this than blogging about National Coming Out Day!

For those of you who don't know, National Coming Out Day is on October 11 and it's the day that is an internationally-observed civil awareness day for coming out and discussion about gay, lesbian, bisexual, and trangsender issues. (thank you wiki!)

So, what are your schools doing for that day? It's a shame that Cornell's gay community is not that involved and you don't really hear much of anything on National Coming out Day, but they do have a few things going on. I wish that this day was a lot more popular and better known. It wasn't until this year that I even knew or heard of it before hand, and that was only through the queer-related listserves. I bothers me when I think about how little must be heard of these issues on smaller, more conservative campuses when I begint to consider that Cornell is so big and so liberal and yet to little is heard on this campus.

However, hopefully, this year, the LGBTQ groups plan to have a few things set up on the main plaza on campus, including a closet door to step through! I also received an email on the LGBT-listserve asking people to send in their names so that they can print them out and post them on the newspaper on that day. Just list all the names of the allys and gay/lesbians/queers on campus. I feel like this is a pretty ballsy move for anyone. Granted, they probably wouldn't face a lot of backlash for doing so, and while I'm not comfortable with just putting my name out there like that- I totally give props and kudos to anyone who does.

So anyway, what do YOU plan to do for National Coming Out Day? I plan to just wear my Queer's fight back shirt (an event last semester) and my rainbow belt! Any more plans/ideas?

07 September, 2009

Detective Comic #856


Following my review of Detective Comics #854 and 855 I felt that it was necessary that I keep up with the following issues. Issue #856 was a pretty interesting read, and I really appreciated the suited up lesbians!

While there really wasn't much of a plot development in this issue until the final few pages, I really enjoyed the scene with Kate at her step mother's fundraiser. Instead of the usual ball gown, Kate opted for the trendy tux, and while she did raise a few eye brows, ultimately, she was able to have a dance with a fellow gay girl who also came in a tux.

This part of the comic actually does raise a few question in real life as well. What is a gay girl to wear at formal parties/get together. While dresses are downright uncomfortable, suits, I feel, have yet to made the transition completely across the gay girl section of formal attire. I know that I dislike having to wear dresses for formals (or my frat's inductions) or family parties, but I feel like I have no other option. Of course, one can always opt for the "I'm here.. get used to it" viewpoint and stick to the pants and just stare right back at the people who stare back, unfortunately I have yet to get to that point.

Until then, instead of suiting up, I'll be dressing up! Oh, if only one day I too can pull a Robin Scherbatsky.

#16 - But I'm a Cheerleader

If there's one movie that always leaves me with a smile on my face and a warm feeling in my heart, it's But I'm a Cheerleader. Premiering in 1999, But I'm a Cheerleader is one of the funniest satires I've seen, and being that it was the first lesbian movie I ever saw, it did leave an imprint in the good ol' bag of lesbian nostalgia-dom.

Feelings aside however, But I'm a Cheerleader is a very good romantic comedy. The acting leaves a little to be desired, but it is still pretty entertaining to watch. From the seasoned lesbian/gay man who can laugh at gay jokes to the coming out of the closet person who can kinda begin to see that maybe being gay isn't all that terrible, the sexual innuendoes and the setting full of stereotypes is one that anyone can enjoy.

Plot

The movie is about Megan, a girl-next door, apple pie making, cheerleader who is sent to True Directions, an center that turns gays into ex-gays, after her friends and family conclude that she must be a lesbian. She does have all the signs - a poster of Melissa Ethridge, doesn't eat meat, has a flowery pillow, and doesn't like kissing her boyfriend. While she originally protests being gay, hence the "but I'm a cheerleader!" part, once at True Directions she does come to realize and admit to her true feelings. The rest of the movie centers around her, her romantic interest, and the other kids at the center while they attempt to convert, subvert, or run away from True Directions.

The movie pokes light hearted fun at the idea of conversion therapy, stereotypes, and closed minded adults, all of which adds to the charm of the film.

Characters

All the characters in the film add a special, unique flavor to the movie. While each person does represent one stereotype or another, they are all lovable and you feel for each of the teens in the move. The relationships between the characters are also heartwarming and positive, for the most part. While there are a couple times where I did get annoyed by the protagonist, her actions do remind you that people are flawed and at times ridiculous.

Setting

One of the things that stands out when watching the movie, is the use of color in the setting. Most of the colors related to the gay teens are so bright and vibrant, which stands in stark contrast to the background and attire of the parents in the film, and the world outside of True Directions. This sharp contrast brings a tone of surrealism to the film that make the events in the movie that much more believable to the audience.

But I'm a Cheerleader is definitely a positive lesbian movie for a person of any age, particularly teens. It is funny, heartwarming, and charming. Unlike many of the other films that end in tragedy or disgrace, this movie ends with a sense of hope for the future.

10 August, 2009

Casi Divas

I just came back from seeing a special screening of Casi Divas (or roughly translated, Almost Divas/Famous). It's a recent Mexican film that has made it's way to the United States. Casi Divas is a film about a fictional reality show where the contestants are competing to be the next star for a movie. It's a comedy that as times is filmed as a documentary, reality show, absurd comedy, and expose. It follows the lives of 4 of its contestants: Francisca, Ximena, Yesenia, Catalina. They all come from different parts of Mexico and are a bit stereotyped into it.

The best I can describe the movie is that it's a movie about a reality show that does not take itself too seriously but also tries to bring about topics of importance. It touches on a number of topics that are issues in Mexico - kidnapping, racism, homophobia/transphobia, and eating disorders. In fact, each one of the women is the poster child for each of those issues. It's a movie that makes you think about these things, but it doesn't try to be a part of the movement to change any of the problems. In fact, it brings them to light just so that you know they exist. Ximena sums it up perfectly near the end of the movie: "I am who I am."

No one really learns anything in the movie, and many things go back to the same way they were. But, the thing is. The movie doesn't seem to be a movie where the characters is supposed to learn something new. The purpose was to get people to laugh and to make a satire of a few Mexican things - particularly soap operas.

I had my reservations about tagging this under "101 must see..." because no one in the movie a lesbian. Although, at one point you do think one is. In fact, that character, Yesenia turns out to be wtm transgender. Since I do not have a 101 for the trans community, and since Boys Don't Cry is on this list, I add it to this list as well, with hopes that newer updated versions will include it as part of the 101's as well. Because I do think that this is a movie that lesbians should see, or any woman for that matter. It's a movie about women before anything else. These women supported each other, were at times bitches, but did genuinely care about each other (for the most part).

I particularly liked how the topics were treated in the film. Like I said, they weren't added to start a movement or anything, they were added to simply inform the audience that these subjects do exist, and these are things that people have to live and deal with. And when the camera is off, these problems will continue to be there. Juarez is a place in Mexico that is notorious for kidnapping for women trafficking. Anorexia is something that many women deal with. The pressure to be thin knows no borders, and the fact that it does remain hidden for years, and can continue to be concealed is something that is also real. Racism because of how dark you are, even in Mexico, hell, in South America, is also legitimate. The browner you are, the harder it is. And for the homophobia/transphobia, so much has already been said about those issues, and I'm glad that they continue to be talked about.

This movie was a perfect mix of humor and seriousness. It times it was completely absurd, and then you were brought back quickly to reality. Even then, most of the times it was done as a satire. I don't really have anything bad to say about this movie. It was very well done. Even though it was a bit stereotypical, it was done so that you could laugh at the stereotype. And it wasn't done maliciously, for someone who doesn't know much about Mexican culture, it wouldn't give you a negative perspective on it.

As I've said before, I'm very proud of Mexican cinema as of late. They have produced some truly tremendous films, and this is an example of one of them. It was well written, well acted, and well received.

09 August, 2009

#70 - Red Doors

In the same way that The Incredibly True of Adventures of Two Girls in Love wasn't a lesbian movie, or a teen movie, Red Doors wasn't a lesbian movie, or a movie about a Chinese family. Instead, it was a dramedy about a dysfunctional family trying to survive.

Red Doors, directed by Georgia Lee, is movie that follows the lives of three Chinese daughters and their parents in the United States. It's evident that all three daughters were raised in the US and have assimilated into the Western Culture. The youngest, Kat, is part of a hip hop dance group, the eldest is engaged to a white man and has been planning a wedding that does not include many, if any, of the Chinese traditions, much to her mother's chagrin.

In case you're wondering, the middle child is the one in the lesbian relationship. In fact, I spent a good portion of the beginning of the movie wondering who was the one who would eventually come out. Honestly, that relationship was not given a lot of attention in the movie, but then again, none of the characters and their stories were given much attention. While a little under developed, I somehow still felt like I had seen enough about each person. It almost felt like most of the action and thoughts happened off camera, and what was shown was the result of those actions.

However, this does not take away from the movie. Red Doors was a quirky film about quirky characters. It's a sweet film about family. Although they all had their own lives, although none of them seemed really connected to each other, at the end of the day they came together. And although the movie is full of jokes and one liners, it also has a serious undertone. The themes they deal with aren't all funny. However, it does appeal to those with a darker sense of humor.

There is one bone I do have to pick with Lee. Julie's sexuality was a bit too ambiguous. I would have liked to have seen some type of lesbian revelation, or or scene where she admits to same sex attractions or something. I'm not asking for a coming out scene, but some type of scene where you learn a little bit about the character. Her sister's had a couple scenes where you got to see the past, thoughts, experiences of the characters, but you never got that for Julie. Let's just chalk it up to middle child syndrome.

However, I still really liked this film. Everyone was amusing and the plot, while a bit zanny was pretty good. If you're looking for another movie about a Chinese family, after watching Saving Face, definitely look into this one.

07 August, 2009

#88 - The Incredibly True Adventures of Two Girls in Love

Since his passing, I've had John Hughes on my mind a lot. His movies have always had this quality about them that made them memorable and relatable even in the most extreme of cases. He got you laughing, but also thinking.

I bring him up now because thats the exact same feeling I had after watching The Incredibly True Adventures of Two Girls in Love (try saying that 5 times fast). This movie is right up there with The Breakfast Club, Sixteen Candles, and Ferris Bueller's Day Off. In the best of times and worst of times in the movie, there was this undertone that served as a reminder that these kids were still in high school and had all to face all the things that go along with that.

Plot/Setting
This movie wasn't a lesbian movie, and it wasn't a teen movie, it was just a movie about two teens and their first love, and the wild things that result from it. That's enough of a summary for you. I will also add that I loved the way that the director treated the characters lives outside from each other, and their relationship. From the note passing near the lockers, the awkward hand holding, and the strict parents that no longer understood, and the oblivious, often hurtful "friends" - everything was so iconically high school that it was perfect.

Characters
I loved all the characters in the movie. The main character Randy is this butch lesbian who is self conscious, vulnerable, but also very strong. She stands firm even in the worst of cases and has a good heart.

I wish I had seen more of her leading lady, Evie. Evie is a little bit sheltered, very sweet and smart, affluent African American. She starts the movie as a straight girl and as the movie progresses, so does she. The reason I wish I could have seen more of her is because she had to deal with many things at once in high school. Not only was she trying to figure out her sexuality, but it was also obvious that she was always very aware of her race, and interracial relationships. She talks about her mother's disapproval of her father's new white wife, and asks Randy if her aunt (Randy does not live with her mother) does not like her because she is black. Clearly, Evie was dealing with many pressures from many sides and I would have really liked to have seen a little bit more from her perspective.

The more minor characters were equally as rich in character development and equally as entertaining to watch. You got to see a little bit of everyone and it was really great how it all came together at the end. I especially loved Randy's best friend, Frank, the gay Hispanic male in the movie.

After watching It's in the Water, and having decided that I would not be including that in the newly updated version of the Amazon positive lesbian movie, I was looking for a movie to replace that film. This is certainly it. You cannot really go wrong with this movie. It's funny, its decent, its leaves you smiling at the end. While the ending does not really provide much of a resolution, it does provide enough for the viewer to know that everything will be alright. The dedication at the end of the movie, showed that too.

Blues Clues and Gender Roles

Blues Clues is an interesting children's show. It premiered in 1996 on Nickelodeon and has become very successful and recognizable to many children in the United States and abroad, second only to Sesame Street. The show stars a blue animated dog and the dog's human friend as they solve a puzzles throughout the episode. While no new episodes are not being made, its syndication and dvds have been very successful.

The reason I bring up Blues Clues in this blog is because of the way that gender roles are presented in the program. Blue is a blue dog. One would automatically assume that Blue is a boy, in fact... Blue is a girl. This character completely challenge gender roles. If you look at most shows, hell, if you look at most babies, you can easily ascertain their sex by the color of their clothes, by the things they play with, and by the things they do. Blues Clues however, does not fit into this norm.

I think it's amazing that the producers of this show decided to create the characters in this way. Without a doubt, this must have been on purpose. The funny thing is that when Blue's sex was revealed, it came to a surprise to most viewers. In fact, a small number of parents were angered by the fact that such roles were being challenged. Even right now, if you google up things related to this subject, you will comments posted here and there that talk about how if you let your child watches this show, you are promoting the "gay agenda" and how you are giving a chance for you child to "become gay." People certainly approve of the status quo. In fact, Blue halloween costumes are usually worn by boys.

Blue is not the only character in the show to challenge gender roles. Tomboy dog, Green, also defies what girls do and don't do. She is aggressive, plays sports, and also angers conservative parental viewers. The only cat on the show, Periwinkle is a boy, which is also friggen amusing.

Personally, I love that the creator of Blues Clues challenged gender stereotypes and created a world where they do not exist. I also happen to love that the creator, Angela Santomero has created a new show on PBS called Super Why! From what I have heard, this too challenges gender roles.

While there definitely have been shows that haven't succumbed to stereotypes, there are more that do than those that don't. Even though Blues Clues is already a show that isn't in production anymore I still think it's important to recognize the impact it has had on a whole new generation. And while the kids may not have noticed too much that Blue was blue and also a girl, it did stir some waves amongst the adults and whatever does that is fine by me!

06 August, 2009

Supreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor

Yes, I write so many things in this blog, I had to write about her too! Sonia Sotomayor is now officially a Supreme Court Justice of the United States. Needless to say, this is a major step forward for many people. She is the first Hispanic judge, and third female judge on the Supreme Court and her background, both academically and developmentally are sure to have given her the tools she needs to make decisions that are right and just for United States Citizens, residents, and immigrants.

It goes without fail that many people are looking to Sotomayor to see what she can bring to her position. She's Hispanic, she is a female, she had a poor upbringing, she is Catholic, she is divorced, and she is a diabetic. In many ways, she is many things in one. I'm sure many of these groups will look to her to see the decisions she makes and how she makes them. We already know where she stands on many things, but I want to know where she stands when it comes to LGBT rights.

According to Citizen Crain: The Independent Gay Blog, Sotomayor has not faced many cases involving LGBT rights, and this is true. So not much is known about her views. While I don't know much about where Sotomayor stands on this issue, I am very interested to find out. In these years to come, I'm sure that we are going to find many cases involving this very issue, and I want to know where this Judge stands on it.

Judge Sotomayor does seem to one that is more fact based, than ideal based. And this can come to our favor, so I hope that should cases like these do appear, she makes the decisions that does help our community.

Until then, I do extend my congratulations to my fellow South Bronx native, Hispanic woman who went to a high school and elementary school that many of my friends have attended and am glad that her nomination went through. Also, I feel it is necessary that I must add this- Obama is President!

Detective Comics 854-855


DC comics has unveiled a new story line for Batwoman in their Detective Comic Series. Of course, many avid comic book readers already know that Batwoman is a lesbian. A cute, spunky looking one at that. While I only recently got into comic book fandom, I don't know much of her story line, but I did find these two new comics really great and fun reads.

The good thing about comic books is that they are short stories that keep you wanting more. Issues 854 and 855 are no different. While the story line has not ended with these two issues, the series promises to provide some really interesting things happening to our superhero.


So far, I've liked the way that they touched on her sexuality, but did not make a big deal of it. Her relationships were no different than that you may see with any of the other characters in DC. There was conflict between her partner and mostly caused because of her nightly adventures. Clearly, her partner did not know about her secret identity and instead just assumed that she was having an affair. I thought the way the relationship was treated was pretty fair and just like any other relationship. (The above picture doesn't do her justice, she looks much bigger and paler than usual).


The story in itself was also pretty interesting. The above villain, Alice, is this intense woman who is both cruel and lost from all reality. It was awesome! Since these two issues were setting up the story and setting, there isn't much to tell about the plot yet. What we know is that the comics start with Batwoman returning from having been kidnapped and tortured and almost killed, and after recuperating, she is tracking down Alice to get answers. While none have been given so far, the journey certainly seems like one that will hook readers.

I recommend these couple comic books to anyone who has the chance to read them. Even if you're not much of a fan of comics, you will be a fan of these.

05 August, 2009

New Evidence in Reparative Therapy

The APA (American Psychological Association) has stated that "Gay Therapy" does not work. Although many people have known this for a while, I am glad that the APA is finally recognizing this fact. Too many people are negatively affected by believing that being gay or lesbian is something that can be changed. From family members, to policies, to people who are in the closet and coming to terms with their sexuality - everyone and everything is hurt when you believe that it's a choice. So that have the APA finally recognize it is important. In the past gay therapy has been criticized by the APA, but it is now rejected.

I also happen to like how they do offer alternatives to those whose religious and sexual orientation clash: celibacy, changing churches etc. I do think it is important to respond to the fact that like they said, "Secular therapists have to recognize that some people will chose faith over their sexuality." The APA can do very little in changing the policies of the churches, but in the mean time they can offer alternatives to the religious who are gay.

I can also see where some people might be offended by the fact that they offering alternatives, rather than helping their patient overcome their belief that homosexuality is a sin. Two things must be touched upon those people who would pose an argument, like the article states, "the religious psychotherapists have to open up their eyes to the potential positive of being gay or lesbian." Sometimes there has to be a change made in the religious community if you are going to change the minds of the religious who happen to be gay. It might be the only way. The APA is being proactive. I think it also does people good to remember that these religious gays might be going to therapists/priests/pastors that may be from their religion, or who in the past have advocated that a change can happen. So by rejecting the claim that reparative therapy does help, they are helping these very people who would have otherwise gone to them and suffered tremendous physical and emotional pain.

Overall, I'm really glad that the APA finally opened their eyes and stated that reparative therapy, or gay therapy, does not work. I wonder what type of legal issues will arise because of this, that will lead to bigger change?

04 August, 2009

#51 - Lost and Delirious

"Like the lost boys from Peter Pan... except we're the Lost Girls.... Lost and Delirious." - Tori

I'm sure most of you gay kids out there recognize this quote. And if you haven't...you should look into it. That's right. I've gotten to the mecca of lesbian movies. Lost and Delirious. You might be hard pressed to find a lesbian out there who hasn't heard of this movie, watched this movie, hates this movie, loves it, or came out or at least felt more comfortable in their skin because of this movie.

I'm probably all those things in one. I'm reviewing this movie, not after a first viewing. On the contrary, I'm pretty sure I've seen this movie quite a few times. And after every viewing, I'm never really sure how to feel. I have my issues with this film, but at the end of the day, I feel it does what it set itself out to do. Be an angsty, teen, movie for lesbians.

I do like this movie, for a number of reasons (and no... one of them isn't because its an all girl's school!). I like the characters, they aren't very real, but not much of this movie is very realistic. Granted, the plot is very much grounded in reality, but it's not very real. It takes itself too seriously sometimes, and makes it more "emo" and introverted than it should be. It depicts the characters as these intense girls who are ruled by their emotions and are at times melodramatic. On second thought... that is exactly what all girls schools are like.... And because of these factors, there is a surrealism to this entire film that if you aren't really paying attention, you sort of don't really catch. Instead, you might see it as it just being a bad film, or a good one. Honestly, it's a little bit of both.

Reasons why it is good:
1. The acting isn't that bad. All the characters are pretty fresh faces and for a teen flick, it's really not that bad. It's not great. No one should be getting Oscars, but no one should be getting Razzies either. Piper Perabo's Paulie is one of the best things in this movie. Her emotions are clear on her face and the audience can definitely feel it. You're touched by her pain and wish Tori wasn't so cold.
2. The plot is fair. I know people have problems with it, but honestly, it's an emo teen movie. If these elements weren't in it, I'd be concerned.
3. The setting is somewhat realistic. It would have been nice to have seen that there were more than two teachers, but the dynamics between all the girls was pretty nice and nostalgic to see at times.
4. They are all fairly attractive. If all else fails, just watch their faces.
5. Tori was heartbreaking at best, infuriating at worst. Sometimes it was hard to watch the movie simply because you had to see what else she was going to do.

Reasons why it's bad:
1. If you are a person who is huge on good acting, well you might be a tad annoyed by this movie.
2. Certain parts of the story were unnecessary. Really? Why was there a bird?
3. Paulie's downward spiral was a bit overdone. I could have gone without the warped screen, Shakespearian quotes, and duel.
4. Tori was heartbreaking at best, infuriating at worst. Sometimes it was hard to watch the movie simply because you had to see what else she was going to do.


At the end of the day. I say, watch it. It's not that bad. If you have some time, go for it. If you are in the process of coming out and want to see some lesbian movies, see it. If you want a good laugh, watch it too. This movie appeals from the cynics to the idealists. This movie did a lot for when it came out, and should be respected as such. No matter what, this is definitely a must see movie for lesbians.

Rage more.

03 August, 2009

Julieta Venegas

Is she gay? Is she not a lesbian? I think so...but I've realized that most of my posts have been about my 101 project, and since my eyes have been hurting a bit from all the tv watching, I've decided to deviate a bit from it and go on to a couple other topics that I happen to love! Spanish music! and Lesbian speculation!

One of my favorite singers in any language is Julieta Venegas. Her music is stupendous, her style impeccable, and her face... beautiful. Although born and raised in Long Beach, CA, this Mexican-American singer sings Spanish pop and rock songs. They touch on a range of subjects, and her duets with other Spanish singers are even better. Honestly, I could start listing my favorite songs of hers for you to listen to, but just listen to any of them and you'll love it. The beats are irresistible even if you don't know the language.

So, why am I talking about her? Just to use a new venue to tell the world of her awesome-ness? A little bit, yes. But! Also to do a little speculation about Julieta Venegas' "potential" as Telemachus Two likes to put it. While there isn't much evidence that she's gay, there isn't much evidence that she isn't. Of course, if she was, I don't think she would ever come out. A Hispanic female out of the closet, in the spanish world might not sell so many records. But, that wouldn't mean that she's not! So why do I think she might be gay? Well, let me count the ways:

1. She's been credited to being pretty big on gay rights. Of course, that could just mean that she's an advocate, or it could just mean that she is an "advocate." She was in the Latino Gay Festival in LA, and was quoted saying. "Pues nos invitó la organización y nosotros felices, yo feliz de venir aquí con la comunidad gay a hacer una fiesta, yo creo que es importante que cada vez tenga más lugar la comunidad gay, tanto aquí en Estados Unidos la latina, como en todos lados, en México también creo que es una comunidad que merece su lugar, como cualquier otra comunidad y yo creo que estamos buscando lo mismo en la vida y cada vez la sociedad va aceptando más el hecho de que hay gente en la diversidad, creo que la diversidad es muy natural del mundo, es parte del ser humano." For you non-spanish speakers. In this she is saying that it's important to get involved with gay rights and that WE are looking the same out of life and every day, society is getting more accepting. That's right, she said "estamos" (we are) not "ellos estan" (they are). Now, this could just be semantics, and I need to sit down and breathe in a brown paper bag, but I do think it is a tip off that something queer is going on.

2. She did the soundtrack for Quemar Las Naves. A gay Mexican movie about a boy in a small town and crazy family. The fact that she would lend herself to such a work is once again another indicator of her pro-gay leanings. Which is fantastic, but also like i said...

3. Her latest album, Nuevo Y Raro (new and different) has a lot of songs that has a lesbian undertone. "Illusion" with Marisa Monte is duet where they are both talking about chances (or girls) that got away because they didn't act in time. Marisa sings her part in Portuguese and Julieta in Spanish, and I don't care what they say, when I first heard that song I thought the lyrics were about the two girls singing about each other. "Perfecta" with Miranda is undeniably a lesbian song. Legit. It's gay. Once again, both girls are singing about each other. Both are talking about how they are perfect for each other. To roughly translate, a few of the lyrics sung say " even though we knew what we were doing wrong, we didn't stop until we we both were done, and when we finally realized what we were doing... I just continued kissing you," "maybe it wouldn't be so bad to be your other half," " how is it that it changed? you were my friend and now your my girlfriend" etc. Yes. this was all a part of the song. Sure, there are some gender neutral pronouns thrown around in a couple places but, when you have two girls singing lyrics like those... I'm going to need convincing otherwise. "Mi Principio" is not a duet, but the theme song for Quemar Las Naves. In this song, she talks about leaving because there is nothing else there for her, she can't live her life in that small place. She has to burn her bridges to be who she is. Leaving will be her renewal. Need I say more?

4. Those are just her newer material. Her older songs aren't so blatant, but definitely have raised a few questions. "Limon y Sal" and "Andar Conmigo" are the two that have mostly done that. While I actually did not really see anything telling with Limon y Sal, a friend of mine pointed out the fact that she's basically saying that she only likes the person she is singing too when she is drunk (limon y sal), and that is the only time those two can be together. Andar Conmigo did raise my gaydar with the music video. There's a couple lesbian couples in it, and over all... there are some gay undertones.

5. She is very private with her personal life. Of course, she might just not enjoy the spotlight, or she might just not want her business all out in the open.

6. Almost all her songs are gender neutral! Seriously, they almost all are. Some aren't...but most are gender neutral.

So is Julieta Venegas gay? I think so. Or at least, I certainly hope so. She would do great things for the gay community, especially in Latin America. Of course, there is also the downside. She could just be type casted as a "gay artist" and lose her huge fan base. Honestly, if that were the case, I'd rather have her in the closet giving out clues, rather than out of the closet, but just becoming just another lesbian singer, rather than a singer who is gay. Frankly, I don't think we are there yet, where that wouldn't happen. I mean, who doesn't remember what happened to the RBD (latino teen pop group) when one of their members came out of the closet? Everyone flipped.

So, while we may not know for a while. For the time being, I will satisfy my craving with her music and tons of speculating to anyone I know who listens to her.

29 July, 2009

#75 - Saving Face

As I'm sure many of you have noticed (yes, I used many for our small following), I really like Saving Face. I've referenced it a lot, and figured it was high time I give a more detailed review on Alice Wu's film, since it is a part of the 101's and the positive lesbian list.

Saving Face had been the best lesbian movie, in general that I had ever seen. And in the chick flick category, there was none other. The relationships were real, the story was entertaining, and the dialogue was fantastic. Then, I watched some more recent films (*ahem* I Can't Think Straight), and I began to look at Saving Face more critically to see why it did not matched up.

To say the least, the relationships were well handled and realistic. While there were some culture clashes (i.e. the father's idea that his reputation should be what most mattered, etc), for the most part I could relate to the characters (maybe you can chalk that up to my traditional, hispanic upbringing). I loved the relationship between Will and Vivian, and Will's relationship with her mom was also endearing to watch.

There were also some really awesome scenes between the characters that still totally crack me up and having me cringing with embarrassment for Will. Needless to say, this movie will make you laugh.

The chemistry between the two characters is also fantastic to watch. Their intimacy and scenes where they finally do the deed is always sensual and gratifying, no matter how many times you watch it.

So...the plot is great, the script is great, the acting is awesome. Why does it not match up? Part of the reason is that the ending is a bit too... rosey colored window. Everyone learns something, everyone is accepted, and everyone lives happily ever after. Sure, most chick flicks end this way, but this one ends this way after having gone through a couple twists that were a bit too surprising and a bit too unexpected. If you like a chick flick to have those elements, then you are totally in the zone, and you will love this movie. If you enjoy staying grounded in reality at all times, you will still love this movie, but find it a bit too much, even a bit campy at a couple times.

However, regardless of its flaws, Saving Face is one of the best lesbian movies out there. Given the fact that there were pretty crappy things before it, its a work of art. Everything works - the chemistry, the acting, the story. Its fantastic. Watch this alone, with a friend, with a lover.... no matter what, you'll leave smiling.

28 July, 2009

#95 - The World Unseen

Can I just start by saying that I think I love Shamim Sarif? Okay? Alright, I'll say it. I think I love her talent. She is an awesome director. I also love Lisa Ray and Sheetal Sheth.

I just finished watching The World Unseen and I was very impressed by the overall movie and, once again the two gorgeous actresses. Unlike Sarif's later movie, I Can't Think Straight, this movie is by no means a comedy, in fact, calling it that could not be further from the truth. At times, the movie was gut wrenching and very difficult to watch. The debut of the two actresses was phenomenal. Like in their later film, the chemistry between Lisa Ray and Sheetal Sheth is undeniable, and their ability to play a range of emotions makes their movies fantastic.

Like I said, the movie is often times very difficult to watch. It takes place in South Africa during the apartheid, where racism and machistmo reign supreme. The main character, Amina, is a free spirit who owns a cafe (which for a woman to do that during this time is pretty impressive). Amina defies gender norms and while not out of the closet, people in the town do talk. She falls in love with Miriam, a housewife who has 3 children, a conservative husband, and just a woman who never really thought she had any options, or the right to think.

The progression of their relationship is well paced and while nothing is really resolved at the end of the film, you are left at peace with the characters. These two women develop wonderfully into stronger women after their experiences, and it was great to once again watch their relationship blossom.

Another topic that is touched upon in this movie is racism. Then again, if you are having a movie take place during apartheid, you are bound to touch on this subject. The relationship between Amina's black friend and the white woman he feel in love with was touching, and heartbreaking to watch. The racism he, along with some of the darker skinned characters faced was both infuriating and terrible to watch. You really felt for all the characters in this movie.

I strongly recommend this movie to anyone who wishes to see it. It's not just a lesbian movie, and it's not just a movie about race. It's a movie about the human condition.

I have loved the two movies directed by Sarif, and I can't wait to see what else she'll come out with.

#57 - Mango Kiss

After having watched Mango Kiss, I can now almost completely understand why there are some people out there who can't stand watching But I'm a Cheerleader. Both have this surreal quality to it - from the way the characters dress, the color of the scenery, and the plot itself. I compare this movie to But I'm a Cheerleader because that is what it reminded me of... except that the characters weren't teenagers, but instead butch kinky women. So basically, But I'm a Cheerleader... rated R.

As such, I'm left with a lot of questions that could be used for both movies. Where the hell is this supposed to take place? Why is everyone so absurd? Why did I spend time watching this? (at least, for BIAC, these questions were made with a positive undertone). During brief periods while watching this, I even found myself thinking... I need a break, this is too much for me.

So let's get down to the nitty gritty, shall we?

Characters:
Whether the director thought it important or not to mention, it was the one thing that I kept going back to when asking myself "why is everyone so absurd?" The narrator starts off the movie by mentioning that they had recently graduated college, and with that background the one thing that I could think of was...ooh! they are too baked to be a part of reality just yet.

Yes, that is the way these characters acted. In particular, Sassafrass. Yes. That is her name. Either this girl was oblivious to the world around her, brain fried to know she was in one, or making pretend. Her actions angered me and her voice made me want to just put the movie on mute and turn on closed captioning.

Lou was a little bit more tolerable, although she was still a little bit too much of a punk for my tastes.

The rest of the characters were over-the-top, and depicted as amazingly extreme lesbians who are either femme, butch or just completely out there. My favorite characters were their neighbors who were depicted as the femme and stone butch who basically live like a husband and wife. But their satire could not make up for the rest of this movie. Now, I know, I know, the movie is not supposed to be taken seriously, its a comedy, but.... I can't help but be too amazed that this terrible movie was actually made into a movie.

Plot/Setting
The movie is about these two girls who originally started off as best friends, became something more, explored non-monogamy, entered the world of S&M and started to fall apart when they realized that they were in over their heads and had no idea what to do about it.

I go back the question I posed before... where the hell is supposed to take place? Supposedly they live in San Francisco, but I feel like a place like this can't exist. And if it does, I'd rather not go there. It's not because of the themes, but because the characters were just too... intolerable.

Pros
There were none. No, totally joking. The acting wasn't that bad. The actors did a good at job at playing their roles. Either that or they were completely baked while playing their parts.

I remember Telemachus Two mentioning that there aren't that many movies with butches that she's seen. Well, here everyone is. So if you are just looking for a movie with butch characters, this is it. Do you want one that has that and is of good quality? Keep looking.

So now that I've finished giving in my two cents, I should add that I'm sure there are many lesbians out there who would love this movie. In the same way that there are those who hate But I'm a Cheerleader, and those that love it, I'm sure this movie has split viewer-ship. You are just reading the side that would rather not have seen that movie at all.

27 July, 2009

Spoken Word Artists

I've been listening to a lot queer female spoken word artists lately and I really like the poetry of Andrea Gibson, Alix Olson, and Staceyann Chin, (yea, I already know...where have I been?? They've been around for a really long time). But you know what hasn't been around for a while... this blog! So here I am talking about some really great queer poets.

I first heard Andrea Gibson when she came to Cornell, and I fell in love with her poetry then.
It's funny when I think about it now, I had only recently started going to queer events/meeting queer people at Cornell, and it was all pretty frightening. And yea, even though I sat alone for most of the night, her poetry was awesome. Her poems touch on a lot of subjects from gender norms, war, rape, relationships, and they all were pretty powerful and amazing to hear. A couple of my favorite poems of hers is "I Do" and "Blue Blanket."

Alix Olson comes to a close second to Andrea Gibson.
I first heard some of her stuff at the dorm of a friend of mine, and found her voice to be pretty nice to listen to. While Andrea Gibson sounds more intense, Alix is more sweet. Her poetry also is around the same realm as Gibson's but still pretty unique. One of my favorites of hers is "Picnic Table." I've got to say, its one of my favorite poems ever. I love how all the concepts form into this pretty sweet poem.

And last but not least! Staceyann Chin. Queer poet of color.
She too touches on a lot of the same issues as Gibson and Olson. But, she also talks about issues concerning race. She's been on Oprah, and like the other two, has found a lot of success in this field. She actually was in SummerStage this year in NYC and it was a shame to not be able to go. One of her better known poems is "Nails."

Anyway, these three poets are some of the most talented ladies that I have ever heard. Check them out!

26 July, 2009

Gender Neutral Pronouns

So, recently I've been running into a lot of gender neutral pronouns (ze, hir, etc) and I also got to thinking about a conversation Telemachus Two and I had a little while ago. Most of the time I really do think that I am just as liberal as I am, sort of because I have to be. I mean, how much of "the man" can I be? A triple minority does not have the luxury to do so. Yet, at the same time, when I can be, I am pretty much conservative in my beliefs in terms of government and a bit of societal structures. Now, before you start trying to get my gay card back, I'm not saying that if I was straight I'd be all against gay marriage or anything of the sort, its just that I am all for equality, but just have a thing against hippies or left-wing liberals. Rather than fight against something, I say become a part of it and change from with in.

But anyway, back to gender neutral pronouns. For some reason, "ze" and "hir" really grate at my skin. It's not that I have anything against the trans community, just gender neutral pronouns. While there are many people even within the trans community that do go by either "he" or "she," I have been running into those that use "ze" or "hir." And yes, I've read the articles, understand their logic, binary etc etc, but I just.... Like my girlfriend says, it could just be, that like most people, when it comes to language, you are pretty much taught the basic structures of the language and where things fall into place, and since "ze" and "hir" go against that, I have a problem with it. So alas, this is where I stand.

I can see how people feel that they don't necessarily stand in one binary or another, believe me, I really do. And I'm not saying that I do not support those who do go with gender neutral pronouns or am against the trans community, but come on. give me a break. And yes, I know, I'm not offering solutions, just my opinion.

23 July, 2009

#44 - It's in the Water

Hmm....

I just finished watching It's in the Water, and before I say anything else about the movie, I think I must note that is indeed a generation and culture gap between me and this movie. It's in the Water premiered in 1997 and is about a rich southern town and a rich socialite, who contradicts everything that can ever be attached to that word, and who has bigger dreams and values than is considered proper in her home, her town, her life.

I think for it's time, It's in the Water was pretty good, and pretty groundbreaking. The 90's didn't exactly have a plethora of movies to base itself on, so the director did what she could with what she had. But alright, anyway, back to the actual movie.

It's in the Water was pretty amusing, there were a couple times I chuckled, but all in all, I found it chock full of stereotypes and all together rushed. There was a lot of things happening, but nothing was every really fleshed out. I feel like subjects were danced around for too long, and when they finally got to the action/conflict, most of the movie was already over. Too much time was spent setting up the setting, the time, the culture. And not enough on the heart of the movie.

Most of the movie, as I took it, is a satire on the "society" life, like the expectations and gossip that spreads like wildfire. And I appreciated the jokes, but I felt like it was just too much at once. The director did a good job at showing the bigotry and homophobia, but at the same time, I think she just drove the point in too hard. I mean, come on? HIV Clinic, water scare, etc. It was just too much.

I did not find the movie funny, instead I found myself more angry than anything else. The reason that I say this is because I don't think it should be a part of the positive lesbian movies list! Just because the ending was okay, and the main characters survived, it doesn't make it a good ending, or a happy film. In fact, you are just sort of left with this feeling that these characters are just going to have to live in this world with the judgments and everything else. No one learned anything. Hell, with so many people coming out as queer, it's no wonder that people thought there was something in the water. I don't know. I just wasn't impressed. The ending made it seem like the queer group were nothing but rebels with a cause.

Like I said, for it's time, it was a positive lesbian movie. No one died, no one went back in the closet, and the world did not end. But now... now this generation will not see it in the same way. It doesn't do the same thing that the newer movies do. It wasn't a comedy, not by today's terms. However, it did help in getting us to where we are now. Thanks for that.

101 Must See Movies for Lesbians

I was on afterellen again and ran into a blog post talking about 101 movies for lesbians to see. A few people responded, and gave their recommendations. However, a list wasn't actually made. So I compiled their recommendations and my own and made a list. Here is is! 101 Must See movies for Lesbians or Gay Women:

1. A Family Affair

2. A Girl Thing

3. A Village Affair

4. A Walk on the Wild Side

5. Aimee and Jaguar

6. All Over Me

7. Amour de Femme

8. Antonia's Line (Antonia)

9. Bar Girls

10. Better than Chocolate

11. Between Two Women

12. Blue Gate Crossing

13. Bound

14. Boys Don't Cry

15. Boys on the Side

16. But I'm a Cheerleader

17. Chasing Amy

18. Chinese Botanist's Daughters (Les Files du Botaniste)

19. Chutney Popcorn

20. Clair on the Moon

21. Clara's Summer (Clara cet ete la)

22. Daphne

23. D.E.B.S.

24. Desert Hearts

25. Eulogy

26. Everything Relative

27. Fried Green Tomatoes

28. FoxFire

29. Fire

30. Fingersmith

31. French Twist

32. Fucking Amal (Show me love)

33. Gia

34. Girlplay

35. Ghosted

36. Go Fish

37. Goldfish Memory

38. Gray Matters

39. Gypo

40. Heavenly Creatures

41. High Art

42. I Can't Think Straight

43. If these walls could talk 2

44. It's in the Water

45. Imagine me and you

46. Intentions

47. Itty Bitty Titty Committe

48. Julie Johnson

49. Kissing Jessica Stein

50. Lianna

51. Lost and Delirious

52. Love and Suicide

53. Love on the Side

54. Loving Annabelle

55. Madchen in Uniform

56. Maggie and Annie

57. Mango Kiss

58. Monster

59. Mullholand Drive

60. My Mother Likes Women

61. My summer of love

62. Nina's Heavenly Delights

63. Out at the Wedding

64. Pariah***

65. Personal Best

66. Portrait of a Marriage

67. Prey for Rock 'n' Roll

68. Producing Adults

69. Puccini for beginners

70. Red Doors

71. Rescuing Desire

72. Rome and Juliet

73. Running on empty dreams

74. Salmon Berries

75. Face Saving

76. She hate me

77. She Likes Girls

78. Some Prefer Cake

79. Song Catcher

80. Sonja

81. Spider Lilies

82. The Celluloid Closet

83. The Children's Hour

84. The Fox

85. The Girl

86. The Gymnast

87. The Hunger

88. The Incredibly True Adventure of Two Girls in Love

89. The Journey

90. The Kiss

91. The Laramie Project

92. The Page Turner (La Tourneuse de Pages)

93. The Secrets

94. The Truth about Jane

95. The World Unseen

96. Treading Water

97. TIpping The Velvet

98. Unveiled

99. Vivere

100. Water Lilies

101. When Night is Falling

Edit: Since it is not a movie, I did not put it on the list, but I have gotten recommendations for Last Friends. It's a Japanese drama.